Best extended weekend I've had in a long time!

   This week, our friends, Amanda and Josiah, came over for a visit.  We hung out...played mario kart, played risk, watched Monsters University, and made a crazy movie.  It was so much fun.  :D
   Helen won basically every single mario kart so we made her wait at the start line for 40 seconds before starting and she still won half the time.
   Risk was fun like usual.  Helen started out with a really lame set up.  (It was randomized.)  But she ended up winning anyway.  Siiiigh...


  Playing risk was where we got the idea of the movie,  a western with us playing risk.  Amanda was a banker, I was a train conductor, and Helen was a cowboy or something.  Josiah was the cameraman.  I love making movies, and trust me, this one was hilarious.
   Monsters University was super funny.  I really enjoyed it.  The only thing I don't like about that trip to the theater was when I actually tripped.  Ouch:

   I wasn't used to getting out of a small car because we haven't had one in forever.  So on my way out, I tripped.  I don't know what I tripped on...I think it was the seat belt.  Also it was raining...So I was trying to get out of the car quick.
   So anyway, yeah, pavement is hard.  :(

   Them being here reminds me once again of before we moved here.  We had so many good friends there.  And our church was awesome.  Having church with them today reminded me of that.  The second Josiah led us into worship, I felt God's presence.  It reminded me of what I'm missing.  The fellowship with my good friends, and being deep in the presence of God every Saturday night at church.  I've been struggling with actually doing my devotions every day and going to church every Sunday.  Having church with them today reminded me of who God is.  He isn't "church".  So just going doesn't mean anything.  He isn't some judge that doesn't care about me.  He isn't some far off person who forgets me.  Or someone fake who just pretends to be my friend.  He's someone real who I can actually go deeper in, and feel.  Someone good.  Who loves me.
   When we were singing one of the songs (I forget what it was called), one of the lines was "I will not forget you."  In the song it was us singing it to God.  But I felt like God was saying that to me.
   What with my best friend going off to college this year and my not being able to go this year because of timing problems, and my being really shy and not getting to know many people in my youth group, and the one girl in my youth group, who I know enough I wouldn't feel ridiculous inviting her over to my house, having a busy job, I feel like the clock is ticking and as soon as the time is up I will be alone.  Like completely alone.  And thinking that the second I go back I would have dozens of really good friends, it's just...siiigh...  and anyway my friends there have gone on with their lives, they come for visits, but most of them are in college and have made new friends.  I don't understand why, but it makes me sad knowing that the people-who-I-love's lives still go on even if I'm not in them.  I know it's selfish.  And I don't want their lives to stop or not be good or anything.  I just miss them and I hope our futures will be intertwined.
   I'm just going to have to trust that God will not forget me, that He'll make things work out.